January is almost over. The new year is well on its way and I am still standing on the curb trying to decide whether I should jump on board or not. Naturally, there was a resolution made at the stroke of midnight and certainly there has been every desire present to keep it. But the question is, have I kept to it?
Ironically, I have.
It’s ironic simply because I haven’t been making an effort. I’ve kept to my exercises sporadically. I still try to eat healthily whenever I remember….but while the intention is there, the effort certainly has been absent. Nothing like the sort of hot blooded determination and sweaty workouts pounding the treadmill, that I did last year. YET (and I say this with emphasis) I have maintained my weight and ironically, am even lighter !!
Ask me why, and I’ll have to scratch my head. I really don’t know. The kind of sloppy discipline I’ve been exhibiting these days do not warrant such positive results, and yet it is as I’ve indicated – I swear. I’m not tripping you up. I can’t figure out why….of course, unless you take into consideration stress.
This entire month has been a hair wrenching, pit pulling one for me. In terms of personal worries, I’ve carried the weight of two worlds on my shoulder. A family member’s ill and a non-diagnosis honestly is way worst than knowing. Thankfully, while we’re still in the woods, a light is shinning at the end of a very long and tiring journey….and I am grateful. Perhaps all that running around, being super busy, tending to everyone’s needs before my own, has been the cause of my wonderful progress. But then again, it is not like I don’t eat at all…I mean I do, just irregularly and well, hurriedly…:D but I still go for it. Plus, I remember one particularly bad day (ok, two) I even reached for that all nourishing, super comforting and assuring bar of chocolate…!!
Oh well, what ever the reason. I am simply grateful and thankful. While I can’t logically understand why, perhaps my inability to comprehend might be a sign not to look a gift in the horse’s mouth. Maybe its God’s way of ”rewarding” me for the stress that I’m going through….I don’t know. Whatever, I’m just happy that at least something’s going my way!
So yes, I’ve learned a new thing for 2010 - stress – major ones – can definately help keep the pounds off…:D
